Suck that lucky feeling right out of me

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 05:09:15 GMT

Bye.

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 15:25:06 GMT

HAHAHAH!
Why oh why oh why?
Let me answer that, because there's no room for mistakes.
No mistakes = no failure = no success.
I like being tired. It makes me feel like I'm killing fatty acids and glycerol.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow. Like its what I've been looking forward to all week.

Abhoring what I'm becoming. Placing my self-worth in something I have a love-hate relationship with. Letting the vomit flow when I know I could have swallowed. Wallowing in self-pity when moving on is what needs to be done. Maybe being exhausted isn't that bad after all. For I won't have to deal with things I don't know how to describe but are there to haunt me all the time.

Something needs to be done.
The Killers are geniuses like seriously.

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 13:42:31 GMT

I hate how the internet consumes a lot of my time unintentionally.
Guess I've been reading a lot lately? I don't speed read. In fact, I think I read way too slow.
Don't understand why the urge to kill you is overwhelming me. It bothers me.
I don't even detest you, yet you act like I never want to speak to you ever again (-.-)

COWARD. If someone told me to describe you, that pretty much sums up your personality. So sorry.

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 13:09:18 GMT

Amanda's propaganda attempt #1:
Everyone makes the same mistake.
But only some can be forgiven.

So happy right now, I feel like running around with a chopper.

Love the book, The Firm. So annoyingly exciting that I can read it with a pounding headache and fever.
Yay! Finally sick.

Why so serious?

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 17:08:34 GMT

I don't know how to express it. But the feeling is overwhelming and its eating me alive.
I wish I could just dump it there and move on, but something keeps pulling me back and I just can't cut it off.
Urgh. And seriously, I am not nice nor soft hearted.
&too bad, I guess I missed the memo that skinny=pretty=better than the rest.

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 10:49:04 GMT

Pathetically shallow.
What a waste.

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 13:56:26 GMT

I'm mean. Hate me.
Cos she'll always be purrrrfect (:

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 10:51:06 GMT

I constantly thank God for my iPod. Without it, I think I will be VERY VERY distracted when I study.
There's one more thing that I'm grateful for. But i can't remember, cos SS used it up. Currently, deleting those cells and replacing it with new BIOLOGY information.

The season is over. And oh man :///////// Le sighs. It was nice knowing each and everyone of you. You guys are awesome. Knowing ya'll have been a blessing. Its so funny when I look back at 2007, like we didn't even talk to each other and we played like 3 silent games. But now its all cool like a cucumber B) Ok, shall not continue typing, otherwise I just might start tearing.

I feel odd.

Such a lonely ride.

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 12:47:19 GMT

JC 1 and Sec 2s+1s. They sure are good (-.-")
Shin guard tan GONE. YAYSERS!
Darn exams.
Oh right, NO COBRA MAGIC THIS YEAR ): sighs.
I never want to graduate from single sex school, HOW?!

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 14:07:58 GMT

Soooo...
Auditions today was rather amusing. Like seriously. We all met up at the bookshop before making our way to the classroom area. Filled a form, received our scripts and started praticing. 3 roles, just nice. Deb was the minister, Gab as Doug, the groom and me Emma, the bride( forced to, again!!).

I cannot stand the way Gab stareeeeeeees at me when he says the line 'Emma, I love you. I love you the moment my eyes fell upon you.' I WILL CRACK UP and feel awkward. HAAAHAAA! Right, and we had to sing!!!! I'm like rather tonedeaf -.- and i couldn't remember the song 'Still'. Paiseh. And for pitching, I felt like I sounded the same?! Darn it. All I wanted was DBA ( Direct Backstage Admission)!! Le sighs.

Oh wells, will be informed what I'll be doing soon.

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 15:00:42 GMT

Its getting cold.

I want to be smart. Or at least have photographic memory.
Ought to be studying for geog.
Clueless at logarithms and simultaneous equations that really require full brain power.

Like an overhanging rock, I'm waiting for the day, the undercutting creates a big hole and for gravity to bring me to the plunge pool. Teeheeeeeeeeeeee.

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 14:25:52 GMT

Ok, so yesterday, GabFang, Deborah and I did the coolest thing ever.
Sign up for drama auditions. HEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!
There was this guy who said he didn't want dance nor drama. He wanted to SING! Man, he owns.
Truth is, we wanted to do backstage. But Sis Eliza said just tick one la, so we tried to...

Please get the sentence (;

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 16:35:22 GMT

Sometimes, it disappoints me to see that you don't know how fortunate and loved you are by the people around you. You dislike people who pretend to be modest but you do too. I just suddenly feel that way, I don't know why. Don't bother guessing who it is. Because it is definitely not you. Really. I don't hate. I just temporarily feel irritated.

Im happy (:

Mind runs wild like the river at 12am.

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 14:52:26 GMT

Terima Kasih to all who wished me via sms/ facebook/ face2face (:
Me lubs you as much as you love me, HAHAHAHAHHEHEHEHE :b

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 17:04:43 GMT

Who in the world is Priscilla Lam, Irovy Low and Ong Li Lea?!

Training has been too regular. Not that its bad, but uh yea.. I don't know why I'm so worn out. I mean homework isn't coming in piles. For now, I guess.

I really don't know what to do with you man. And I didn't go for buzz group dinner. Which I kinda regret cos I want to know deep dark secrets about church people. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Sneaky. But oh wells. I saw E today and yesterday. HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH! Sp empowerment yesterday was awesome as usual, Esther and Deb were very fascinated with my hockey stick and God's presence was awesome like crazy. Have I ever mention, I hate sweating in my school uniform.

K, I've been doing rather retarded things this week like dropping my stick the moment I step onto the pitch, not passing the ball properly to Angela and attempting to kick the ball with my leg.

CNY doesn't seem appealing without ah ma.
& I miss the adrenalin rush of buying a new album. Sighs. Darn recession.

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 18:24:39 GMT

Its 2.11am and I don't feel like sleeping.
Whats wrong with me?
Broke and helpless,
Sleepy and restless.

I met another Tessa today. And I think she's pretty cool. Unlike the one in school. Ok, I kid. I just felt like rhyming.

SP empowerment on Friday. Oh yea~~!
Problems:
1) How to get to church from Redhill.
2) I stink. woohoo! Smell me after training with the air-con~.
3) I need new deodarant before I kill people. Darn white file*.

*I was looking around my room when I chanced upon my school files. I realised that I still didn't have a white file for Chem. And so I typed it down. When I read back my post, I realised it was on the same line as deodarant? I think I should sleep.

why oh why are you wearing sunglasses in the home when
the sun went down about an hour ago.

Darn all who are going for Jason Mraz's concert. Cos I want!!!!!! Darn it.

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 14:26:26 GMT

Dear people who take the same bus as me,

I know, you're all tired and want to get home to cook/ see your kids/ kiss your husband or wife/ study/ watch tv/ whatever, you get my point. Anyway, I too, need to get my big fat ass+bag home. God bless you for thinking that you're older so you SHOULD and MUST get into the bus FIRST, get the SEAT or to the back FIRST. Dude. I have many things to say to you:

1) I'm sweating and stinking to high heavens and tired from training and school. My hands are loaded with, lets see, AMATHS, BIO, shoebag, hockey stick and my poor ezlink is sticking out of nowhere. To add to that, my school bag looks like its bulging isn't it? Well it is. & it has enough gold bars for me to become Bill Gates. Uhm, so in conclusion, at the state I was in, I guess I looked like 85+++ which means I'm a senior citizen which means DON'T PUSH or CHEAT! Cos I'm too weak to stand and I have bionic eyes to see.

2) I CONFIRM PLUS CHOP WILL ALIGHT AFTER YOU CAN? So let me sit all the way inside behind, then don't need to push me when you want to get out right?

3) I can't balance with my gold bars so please tell your son to stop leaning on me.

4) Its 7pm/8pm, its not the LAST BUS OF THE DAY/ WEEK/ MONTH/ YEAR.

5) Sadly, I'm human too.

Thank you for reading. See you on bus _ soon.

Yours Sincerely,
Amanda.

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Dear person who looks down on me as sec 3 vice capt,

I try so hard to be nice to you. Why so stupid? Cos God says I should love my neighbor as myself. I also quite sad you my neighbor la. Anyway, if I lived so near delta and school, I won't mind bringing the bibs back to wash lor. But too bad my parents like lakeside. You know, I humiliated myself by tying the red plastic bag with bibs to my bag cos my hand no space. I looked like a pure moron. Or at least, like I just went camping. And I did that to make up for my futile attempts to be nice to you. So please, try to converse with me nicely and sensibly, NEVER LECTURE ME and your brother is a guy so he is not in stc hockey.
I hope your knuckles heal soon. Or whatever injury your right hand has got.

I like you, you like me,
Amanda.
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I passionately dislike languages lessons now. I really pray I don't fail English and Chinese. Sighs.
Today my shoulders received Best Shoulder Of The Year award leh.

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 10:42:19 GMT

I'm so entertained that I'm posting here all the time and letting my xanga rot and die?
Christmas service in the morning was a killer. But I had a rather awesome view (;
I FINALLY BOUGHT NEW SHOES!!!!! Meet Ed (not ward. I'm not into someone who already loves another person so immensely or is a FICTITIOUS character. Just ED) and Ellen (: Gona have Ashlee and Ashton's obituary posted on my xanga.
Went home and SLEPT.
Dexter called and asked us if we wanted to see puppies with tua khor. Initially I was really reluctant but I don't regret it a single bit now. Frickking darn cute. Twins, 4 weeks old, maltese. And they want to pick between the 2. If I had cash like them I'd get both cos the price of both puppies can get only 1 in every pet shop.

Love <3 HAHAHAHAH! Can you see joy? :b

They are as big as jo jo's feet. Maybe smaller. Slightly bigger than toilet roll. Carryable with one hand.

Ed and Ellen :B They are Olive-rs. ( i mean color)

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 15:48:15 GMT

1st Christmas eve without you. Used to spend it all the time at your place. Collecting our presents, reluctant to go home cos I wanted to see Sheryl longer, the usual hugs and kisses, the drive home. Then waiting excitedly for the clock to strike 12 so that I could open all my presents. Good old days. I miss you )':

So today's Christmas eve. Sure didn't feel like it. Mainly becos no presents this year. However, hung out with da cousinz and bro[-.-]. Will get pix from Shert when she gets it from Dexter (10 mega pix cam, wth). Wasted time at vivo's forever21 afterwhich we decided to go Pasir Ris to see DOGGIES!!!! So frickking cute, I could marry it. Ok, when I buy a dog I should be united with it in holy matrimony. Drove around fish farms then got sent off to qsc to alter and taper jeans. Late for class again as usual. Don't ask but I can never be on time for it.

Very eventful eve, no? I think tomorrow looks even better: church+suntec w 'rents.
The truth is you should lie with me.

I noticed that out of 52(go on, laugh) friends on facebook, only 1 is from church. So I think I'm the only facebook iGlorify user without the group pictures -.-

My new userpic would have been nicer if Sheryl didn't censor her face. Its nice now cos I drew on it. Actually I like it cos I wish I could smile like that everyday.

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 15:38:17 GMT

My legs ache like a lot a lot and I don't know why. I had a really bad headache which led to a slight fever. This is bad. I feel rather :/ like oh tomorrow I have to go to church to do this
and that
and then there's Christmas party planning which I think I'm doing a horrid job.
and I need to start making presents for people.
and I've my week pretty much planned out.
mon:iwcp party. tues:rest (praise God). wed: shopping w Sheryl. thurs: Christmas service. fri: cycling with Sheryl.
and I feel like I'm going crazy thinking about so many stupid things like should I run on Tues and Thurs?
and worse of all I can't get you out of my mind when I really should.
and why do so many ignyters go for both saturday AND sunday services. crazy, they need to learn to cherish sleeping and alone time -.- or maybe I just don't have a lot of friends. Ice cube what, what to do.
and my dad re-formatted my computer so I don't have msn now, isn't that like absolutely cool? :B
and my mum just scolded me for leaving stuff on my room's floor. First time. Wow.
and facebook applications annoy the crap out of me.
and my phone bill is gona explode? I've been smsing a lot.

conclusion: chop off my legs and put me into eternal slumber. Otherwise I will crap on further.

I just watched Twilight today. And boy, was it the best movie experience ever. I lie.
Amelia has the same guitar teacher as me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Proverbs 13:10 'Each heart knows its own bitterness, and no one else can fully share its joy.' (NLT)

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 11:50:03 GMT

Im back!!! & I received a call & msg from people who expected me to turn up for training -___________-
I think this church camp was really awesome, God's presence and everything was simply amazing. Better than Battlecall. & I LOVE the group God placed me in, iGlorify. Really really great people: Sis Elaine, Adriel, Sis Emily, Lenice, Larissa, Cheryl, Rachel, Faith, Damien, Dominic, Jon, Juztin. Even though we got last ( should be la, according to the scoreboard & first day, we got 1 point only [HEH[) But thats ok, its just a game. Every service was w.o.w. So.. I shall not bore you further unless you ask for it face-to-face or if I love you. I've been sleeping at 12-2am and waking up at 6.30am, sighs........................ camps. But my brother has changed and thats great, glory be to God (: who the crap can wait for the next camp.

Our group cheer rocks la:
iGlorify!
i what?
iGlorify!
i what?
We're radical,
we're hot,
we totally love our God.
He's mighty, He's fit and we're not afraid to sing it.
Glo~~rify
We lift HIs name on high.
Glo~~rify
And we lift His name on high.
Peace.

Oh right. Next year I'm gona be in Sis Eliza's buzz group and I absolutely cannot remember whats our buzz name, so ya. & I don't know what we have to do for the cell group but Sis Eliza told the SPs and PSPs to meet her on Sunday at 12.30pm @church. BUT Deb is going Shanghai on Sat so its me, GabFang and Javian. How I wish there was another girl or at least someone I know..... :/

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 14:42:55 GMT

Yesterday I learned that running can be so very torturous. What acid rush to the butt??? Hurtzzzz.
Weakling.
Whats new?

Today I learned never to stay up til 1am watching 2 episodes of korean drama when you have training tomorrow. Concentration level = 2% (couldn't even control the darn ball)

Arrived at Changi Point Ferry Terminal late (as usual). Training in the morning + cycling & captain ball @PulauUbin + muscle aches from training the day before = dead legs. Was fun while it lasted (; My group was called cheh(?!?! [-.-]) When Jinfero told people he was going to boon lay, they laughed. Pasir Ris to Boon Lay...uh wow.

Anyway, now I know why somebody wanted to know what time we will be done with our crap yesterday....

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 10:29:45 GMT

I want:

His job.

The super frickking excitingly fun game!!!!!!!!!!!!!+ its travel size

Biffy Clyro Greatest Hits album $20.95,HMV!!!

Jimmy Eat World's Deluxe Edition of Bleed America!!!! $45, HMV!!!!!!!!!

oh right, and The Killer's DAY AND AGE!!!!!!!!!
sighs. Christmas is out of the question.

Sat, 06 Dec 2008 05:24:38 GMT

Gona do a crash post soon.
Feeling weak after 3 days of fever and 2 days of kids. Met really funky + funny aunties (:
Christmas planning l8r.
Brain dead, ta.

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 12:07:36 GMT

Crrrrrrap, I think I'm falling sick. & I have a camp to help facilitate tomorrow :/
HAHAHAHAH! I-KIDZ.

LissaLim came over today. Went to City Hall. Saw Carmen at HMV. &quite a few church people along the way. Heh.

Aww man, I feel so dead & I need to start packing x(

Can't believe I'm doing this either.